As a transman, 18 year-old Cole Carman felt that taking female hormones was a huge step backwards. But he wanted to have biological kids, which was only possible if he was willing to take some of his past self with him. “At first, I just wanted to hurry my transition to male — forget that I was ever female and lose the transgender label all together. In the trans community, it’s called living stealth. But when I chose to take female hormones so I could freeze my eggs… I found myself becoming proud of my identity as a transgender man. I was a different type of man, and having lived as a woman was a part of that.” He offers a perspective about the detour in his gender transition, on Youth Radio.